20 little things that are really big.

1. She cries at her favourite U2 album because it's so amazing. The Joshua Tree. 
2. She wants a huge tattoo on her back before she's twentysix. 
3. She wants to be in love with Michael forever.
4. She loves to laugh and fight at the same time.
5. She always gets tempted to buy childrens' books.
6. She gets butterflies when she sees a new Tim Burton film advertised.
7. She adores zombies. Books, movies, figurines.
8. She loves to sit in the rain sometimes when she's stressed.
9. She loves walking around graveyards and reading the epitaphs.
10. She doesn't mind running through mud at a festival or rally.
11. She loves the smell of freshly cut grass, celery and cow manure in the countryside.
12. She loves old and foreign movies.
13. She talks to her cats and dog like they understand.
14. She has four cats.
15. She has one dog.
16. She has a bunch of fish.
17. She LOVES birds way too much. Birds printed on any type of clothing, birdhouses as ornaments.
18. She loves Bamboo and Maple.
19. She loves chai tea more than anything in the world. Yumyum.
20. She has really long hair.

Weather.

I never thought I'd do a whole blog post on the subject of weather but yesterday and today has been AMAZING.

It is soooo warm and the sun is shining. The birds are singing and the flowers are smelling beautiful.

It's a week that even Wordsworth would have written about!

Why did I mention Wordsworth in my post? WELL. One of my favourite poets lived, loved and wrote in the Lakes. I live just on the edge of the Lakes. It takes me about 10 minutes to go there and I love taking advantage of that!

A lot of my family and a lot of Mikey's family are from Barrow-in-Furness so we decided to go there! The city centre and the main part of Barrow isn't great, I'll admit! But you just cross one little bridge and you're on Walney island.

If you fancy going... AND YOU SHOULD. Check out this website.

It has pictures and pages of interest about Walney!

I don't know if it's just me but I have a thing when it comes to the ocean. It makes me feel at peace. I love it so much. I can just sit looking at it for hours and not getting bored.

I don't look the best, I know! Lol, I don't really care! I have major vampire eye. Any light at all makes them pour out with water. Stupid!

The water was soooo clear around the island and I definitely want to go back because we just had a quick visit this time!

I hope everyone is enjoying some good weather!

*my signature is so appropriate for this post, lol*

Getting ready today...

I always do my hair first... then I just scoop it out of the way after... I like my make up to be as fresh as possible when I head out so I do it last. I don't mind if my hair gets a little messy between finishing it and leaving the house.

Foundation is done and then I fill in my eyebrows and do my eyeshadow and liner. I do like a dramatic brow and I know it's not to everyone's taste but it makes me happy. I use natural colours and they're all Urban Decay. I love their shadows the most.

I'm using Brighton Rock by Topshop. I love how bright it is! It's a great statement lipstick and especially teamed with Sky High nail polish by Rimmel. I'm almost out of it! 

All done! 

Hope you all have a fabulous day!

Keep all of your secrets in a happy place.

I have kept a diary almost all my life. I was 9 when I wrote my first one and here I am... 15 years later and still doing it!

I always kept them for when I was older... I wanted my children to learn from my mistakes and learn about who I am through them.

I don't understand my mother most of the time and sometimes I'd just love to dive into her thoughts just to know how she is feeling or what memory she is dwelling on.

I read my old diaries again and every single one is full of anger, upset, depression and complete frustration. I've never been a happy person in general. I was always the strange child or the dark girl. I've always been one to be completely comfortable on my own... until I met Michael.

Friends have come and gone on a regular basis. No one has really ever understood me or how my mind works so it does clash with others often. Only my family and Michael understand how I am and that's why I kept a diary for years... I'd get angry at my friends for being strange with me until I realised that I was the oddball.

Last year I completely demolished my life of these thoughts. I stopped feeling 'different' and 'strange'... now I just accept who I am and I also accept that other people don't always accept the person that you are.

No one understand you fully... just you.

I decided to be positive about my differences and embrace them. I now just add those to a diary instead of the negative thoughts that I always had swimming around my head.

I include my favourite pictures, poetry I love, ideas I have, funny moments, dreams I adored.

Nothing negative!

Make it as colourful as possible too and draw everything you can! Even if it's absolutely terrible... make a thought into pictures... rather than words.

Sometimes it's too hard to put something into words.

Document the start of a happier, brighter life.

It also helps to listen to your favourite music while you do it.

Inspire yourself.

My personal favourites are Anuna, Enya, Clannad, Hans Zimmer, Aaron Zigman or Gustav Santaolalla.

BUT I am a huge fan of classical and easy listening music!